I feel like I’m slowly losing my sanity.

I think this is how I would feel if Mike suddenly disappeared off the face of the earth, or if he suddenly died.

I see couples everywhere, being all lovey dovey and holding hands and stuff…I hear songs that make me miss Mike…and just this past weekend, I went to places that were associated with me and Mike and brought back lots of good memories.

I really miss him. I haven’t talked to him since last Monday and that was already a week ago.

I was at a grad party this past weekend and Mike’s family was there. Mike’s dad saw me and asked me if I knew that Mike had gone to Laos. I was really confused. Mike’s dad told me that he’s been talking to Mike over the phone because he had Mike’s number and because they bought a phone card. I was really sad…

But I miss him a lot. I pray for him every day and I think about him every day. I know it sounds bad because my goal was to focus on God this summer while Mike was away but it’s so hard…I don’t know how army wives/husbands do it.

The absolute best thing that has happened to me this week is that I got to see my best guy friend Pongyue!!! We’ve been friends for 10 years now, and we’re still going! He’s down in Georgia to visit his mom and he was supposed to leave last Thursday but luckily he decided to stay until this Thursday and then he’s going back home in North Carolina to his dad. But it was great seeing him. He still looks good, and he definitely looks a lot more grown up and mature now. He says that I’ve become a woman, too…whatever that means =p

Went karaoking with some friends this weekend and met a new friend named James. He seems pretty chill. He thinks that Christian girls are stuck up so hopefully me and my friends didn’t come off as “stuck up” to him that night at Echo =0

Went to church yesterday and it felt really weird to be there without Mike. It made me miss him more, especially because everyone kept asking me, “Where’s Mike?” and then, “Oh…I’m so sorry” when I told them he was in Thailand for his internship -____-“

5 things? Ohhhhh boy, here we go.

Starting with us girls…

1. Some girls complain too much on Facebook. Yeah, I know you’re all in for the “single for life” motto or you’re talking about this cute guy or liking this guy at school…but seriously, it gets boring after the first five minutes. I’ve got more important things to do than complain =p

2. Girls are absolutely indecisive! That goes for everyday decisions, relationship decisions, where-to-eat decisions, what-to-do decisions…blah, blah blah.

3. Some girls are so unappreciative of what they have, especially in relationships. My friend is the sweetest guy ever and I’ve known him for 10+ years but his girlfriend treats him like crap.

4. Some girls put on too much makeup. For those who are makeup artists, I admire them because it’s their line of work and they were made for it; but for some girls, they don’t know what they’re doing. Less is more, you know?

5. Girls are so complicated. Even I don’t know why we’re so complicated. I’m complicated myself. Wow, this sentence sounds complicated already =0

Now, onto the guys!

1. Guys can be soooooooooooo thickheaded!!!! My boyfriend is pretty thickheaded. Can’t you take a hint? Gosh…

2. Some guys are real jerks. I mean, you’re cute, but you’re such a butt! Didn’t yo mama raise you better than that? Maybe it’s not yo mama, maybe it’s just you.

3. Some guys try too hard to get a girl. I mean, seriously? You’re not going to die if you don’t have a girlfriend like your friends do.

4. Some guys complain WAY too much, especially on Facebook. Who cares if your girlfriend breaks up with you, or cheated on you with another guy? Okay, I can totally sympathize with you, but keep updating with song lyrics and emo statuses and I’m going to drop kick you.

5. Some guys sag their jeans wayyyyyyy too low. Uh, excuse me, I don’t want to see your butt, okay? It’s not that great. A little sag is okay, but anything past the hips is too much. You know what I mean.

This was actually improvised because I had to think about what irritated me about guys and girls. I mean, there is so much more that irritates me but this is for tumblr so…yeah. It’s all I could think of.

Unfortunately, I have yet to be compared with a famous someone.

Apparently, I’m not cool enough =p

I like my boyfriend. I love him, too! Lol

He’s one of those macho guys who appears tough and manly but when he’s with me, he’s sweet and silly. He’s got a servant heart and is always willing to help someone out with whatever they need.

And the rest belongs to me ;)

langdavoona:

welcometowonderland:

1. the person i like and why i like them.
2. a famous person i’ve been compared to.
3. 5 things that irritate me about the same sex/opposite sex.
4. the best thing that has happened to me this week.
5. weird things i do when i’m alone.
6. how i’d spend ten thousand bucks.
7. things i like and things i don’t like about the way i look.
8. my last night out in detail.
9. something that makes me sad when i think about it.
10. something i’ve lied about.
11. would i rather be stranded on a desert island with someone i love for ten years or someone i hate for a month? explain why.
12. something i’m currently worrying about.
13. one person from tumblr i’d throw off a cliff, one i’d marry and one i’d fuck.
14. something i do without realising.
15. lyrics that apply to my current situation/mood.
16. a drunken story.
17. something i regret.
18. post a picture of myself.
19. my longest relationship and who it was with.
20. press ctrl v and post.
21. post a bit of my last IM convo.
22. 5 things i want to change.
23. my view on being tumblr famous.
24. someone i’d like to be for a day and why.
25. 5 things within touching distance.
26. story of my first kiss.

I shall start this tomorrow :) its been a while

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This.Thing.Is.BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!

I’ve had my BB Cream for a few days now, and I am sooooooo in love with it! I literally wanna go to sleep and wake up the next day just so I can put on my BB Cream xDDDDD I bought it on Amazon for about $8.99 but S&H was 4.99 so the total was around $13ish…

Well, this is the Skin79 Hot Pink BB Cream and it has three functions, which are whitening skin, SPF 25, and anti-wrinkle. It’s about 40g and the bottle is actually pretty cute. It’s a pump style bottle so you can dispense as much product as you want.

When I apply it, I put dots on my face and then I blend away! I love how it goes on my skin. It’s reeeeeeeeeally smooth and it doesn’t feel thick at all. I let it sit for a while [or adjust, I guess] because it is a little bit gray-ish but after a few minutes, it’s my shade. I put on eye makeup, and then I’m set for the day!

The coverage is kind of light and I don’t think it’s a heavy sort of coverage. I mean, you can probably keep building up the cream but it’ll probably end up looking cakey…but hey, I like it, so it’s definitely thumbs up for me!

I’m really tempted to throw away my foundation makeup even though I’ve had it for a while. I’m totally in love with my bb cream xD

Virgo made his first bubble nest ever…

*sniff sniff* My beautiful betta is all grown up!

Well, if anyone wants any beautiful betta babies, hit me up! Lol…

…but no, seriously. Virgo would make beautiful baby bettas if he was paired with a pretty female.

But really, the bubble nest just means that I’m doing something right to keep him happy :3

…and he’s probably ready to mate.

Mike is currently in Thailand and he seems to be having a blast, which is great because it’s exactly what I wanted for him.

But…I don’t know what else he’s doing or how he’s doing or how his days have been or how the food is or if he’s met new people yet…

I think he forgot about me.

Maybe it’s because I miss him too much. I dunno. The other day, a friend said he was able to talk to Mike and it shocked me because I wasn’t able to talk to Mike. I mean, I sent him 2 messages via Facebook but the only response I got was, “I love you…and I miss you too.” TT___TT

And he contacted his mom to let him know that he got to Thailand safely! And he’s been updating his statuses and whatnot…he even changed his cover photo…

Maybe it’s just me being selfish…but…maybe it’s also because I feel forgotten…

I mean, I understand that this is his internship and it’s not about me but it’s about him and his overseas experience…

But it would be nice if he would at least say hi…

Lord, this hard life that I’m living…are You preparing me to live an even harder one?

“But You never said it would be easy…You only said I’d never go alone.”
-If You Want Me To by Ginny Owens